Feeeling.

Currently I'm feeling rejected by everyone, even Diane and my Core and Science teacher..which is creepy cause I always feel like they love me the most out of anyone else. Life is so strange and I stayed up too late last night I only got 30 minutes of sleep. gah Orchestra was fun, I was half asleep as we rehearsed St. Paul's Suite. Thank god it wasn't the rehearsal with David cause then I might get so creeped. gahhaa! that reminds me --- After the actual rehearsal we had with David I saw Diane talking with him and suddenly I noticed their lips moving and they were looking at me and kind of pointing at me. It was kind of creepy but I think she was giving him the "youngest musician with the 2 years of experience" conversation.

gah. Why do I have to buy Video Games!!!? I love myself for it. I lose sleep so I get to sleep during Core cause I'm such a weird one. Night. I need lots of sleep and it was not funny when I came back to reality during orchestra and realized that I was playing cello and I had forgotten everything for those few moments. eh. I Loves my Violinist Diane.

New Stuffs.

Yaay! I was verbally abused but got better once I went to the mall with my friend. tee hee I got a new dress and its all prettyfuls...with skulls of course from Hot Topic..now i'm not going to the mall for probably two months at least 'cause I used too much money today. Hmmm. I can't wait for April 25th. Day of silence! Yessers and piss off the Core teacher who doesn't support and then feel good for support. Okays I'm feeling sad yet I just got a burst of energy...I think I should go play Star Wars II or my Fantasy Harvest Moon. I'm watching Atonement right now, Its the worst movie ever. I think I shall wear my green pants tomorrow....or my dress. hmmm.

People in my Core Class...

Just PISS ME OFF. They always act so smart around me it just pisses me off. They also don't communicate me, Just cause i'm the little unstable mouse in the classs that can't handle life It makes me want to kill people...gah If I keep doing that I swear I'll cry and sleep for days again..so I better stop.
Other then that my day has been crappy again.

Sometimes I wonder...if I'll ever make it to 15.

Another Late night.

oh great Joy, Staying up late to do homework and waking up early is so much fun! Jeez. I want to kill my Core techer right now from all this homework. I have this sudden urge to play cello at the moment...so I'll probably do that..then work on my book project. Grar as a person shes nice to me and chats but she thinks my work is crap...therefore I want her to choose one or the other so I don't end up crying. too emotional. I need to find me my cello mute..humhumhum, and get offline.

today was okay

So I think, my teacher used the term "Jacking off" and I was the only one she was talking to. I suddenly said "You do know what you're saying?" and she nodded, "I didn't mean that kind of jacking off but..along the lines of not working" It was crazy.

Cello was actually good today...now I just don't want to do that stupid Anniversary thing with Choir...and I feel like running again. Book group sounds fun tomorrow, thinking about food is making me sick. I need my hardcore music.

Eye Secks.

I freakishly love my science teacher! *gawks*
Seriously, I'm so glad she gave me that apple so I didn't starve 'cause i don't eat lunch. Then I was all spazzing about my dream I had about her. Now it's just Eye Sex. Her eyes are so blue! They are deep rumbling Storms and sometimes they're as bright as the sky. Her eyes are so beautiful, thats why she Eye Raped me once. It was creepy everyone started talking and I was sitting there half awake and she suddenly locks eyes with me. Then they turned to a lighter blue. I was so freaked. So now we have eye sex during class. tee hee yay! I love it when she does it cause Its just random and nobody knows what I mean...she also is teaching more in the middle, by where I sit. Its amazing cause shes within the Radius of my Hotness. I'm kidding. I really love her. I just hate it when teachers are within my line of tightness...or whatever I call it. I honestly am way too out of it to think..and I really need to focus on grades but I can't pull myself out of that god damn pit! My smiling face is usually lie..: oh well. I'll eventually get out of the pit.

Nickel Arcade..best day Evarr!

So, I was at the mall today and these two guys walked up to us and at first I thought it was a little random until they told us they were from this new band Nickel Arcade. I kinda spazzed at first and then settled down as they let us listen to one of their songs. They are amazing and now I am in love/obsessed with them! Just like how my Core teacher is obsessed with me....anyway. It was really cool. The best part was they're basically broke and so I asked how much the Cd was..and I bought it of course. Its Radtastic. I LOVE IT! So now I'm listening to it trying not to scream.
This is the highlight: They thought it was really tight that I liked it so after I bought it they said something like "Have alot to read off of your shoes, Its Intense" and it was tight cause they were like "Thank you for letting us eat!" cause..ten bucks is pretty helpful. I was totally spazzing. It was amazing they were like "god I want to kiss your feet" so then Nickoli he says "We're gonna kiss your feet" So now I got two awesome band members lip germ on my Shoes. but thats Okay cause it was hilarious! Ben kissed my left foot and Nickoli kissed my right.. then I got a hug from both. yay!
I have way too much to write to catch up with life...so...I'm having a Blog Sequence.

omfg !!!

New Blog.

So this is my new blog...I'll have wayy too much to say..so. I guess I just think of this as my personal diary....almost..